Cliches

Cliche #1
"If you love something, set it free.  If it comes back, it's yours; if it doesn't,  it never was".

This, with the image of a flying dove, hung from an obscure corner of my house. I could never understand it's true meaning then and it doesn't matter that I do now. What matters is, do I believe it?
See, the thing is, that when we love someone, we never think we'd have to let them go. And even if we are left with no choice but to let you go, how do we let go of the memories? Of the first time we kissed, of the time we held hands, of the glances we'd steal of the other, of the trivial things we fought about, of the way you looked at me, of the scrabble games, of the vows, promises and the conversations and the million moments of pure heaven in each others arms? How do we let go of all of that? How do we mend our broken hearts?

 Cliche #2
"You don't know what you have till it's gone."

The thing is, you never expected it to go. When you have the right people in your life, you don't think they're gonna leave you or go away from your life. And that is where we go wrong. When we begin to assume that the goodness of our life will always be there, we become complacent and that becomes, by far, the worst mistake we will ever make.

Simple theory

I have a simple theory for life, one of my many, but also one that I find to be most truthful and unbearably painful.

Change – time changes, people change. Change is constant. It’s the only one thing that is constant, in this world as we know it. And yet it seems dissimilar and dynamic because of the variables it involves. The weather changes time changes, people change. The people you love, the friends you have, your parents, your siblings, everyone changes.

Change is good, I think, sometimes. But when that change, in mostly people, starts to hurt in places you didn’t know existed, doesn’t seem so good, does it? Friends changing loyalty, lovers changing their love, parents changing their perceptions, siblings changing with age and years. Sometimes the hurt goes unnoticed. That is the change you were expecting.

Most times change rips your guts out, leaving a huge hole in the centre of your chest, sucking out all the air from your lungs leaving you gasping ad writhing in pain. That is the change you never saw coming. That is the train wreckage exhibit you become, while people pass you by horrifyingly assessing the damage that is you. And all you can do is smile, look as pretty as the scars let you look and start to pick up the pieces. And you fix yourself and the scars heal, visibly, with time and you look beautiful all over again. But, even you cannot fathom the extent of the damage.

How to?

1. How important is it to be important to someone?

2. How much does it matter to be number one in someone’s life?

3. How to get rid of the fears and insecurities?

4. How to explain them to someone?

5. How to forgive?

6. How to let go of the past?

7. How to not let the past affect your present?

8. How to love unconditionally?

9. How to love through the pain?

10. How to kill your pride and bow down to love?

11. How to fill the hole in my chest?

12. How to stop the tears from falling?

13. How to mend my broken heart?

14. How to stop thinking about you?

15. How to stop loving you?

16. How to let go?

Decoding Adam!

I've had my fair share of encounters with the male species, directly or indirectly. I've never encountered a more confused gene composition than them. For the lack of a better comparison, I think a dog would be better to have around. I won't doubt that most men feel the same way about women. From random conversations, I know they think that women are complex. I'll agree! But at least in the matters of the heart (read love) when we love a man we have the courage to stand up to that and hold on to it versus letting it go. When we truly feel for a guy and kiss him, we mean it. Not wake up the next morning to apologize. Apology means regret and we don't regret kissing you. We don't think you deserve better because we know we're the best for you. We don't go around boy hopping till we find the one that stands between splitting our life into before and after. Yes, we obsess  over loosing you. We're an insecure species. Its a gene defect!! Yes we think about you all the time. Yes we get jealous. Yes we become selfish in wanting to spend more time with you, only because we want to convert each moment spent into a memorable memory to recall when you're not around.

Alive

You smile, you're alive
You fear, you're alive
You cry, you're alive
You worry, you're alive
You dance, you're alive
You laugh, you're alive
You feel, you're alive
You breathe, you're alive
You love, you're alive
You live, you're alive

wishes

Wish I had hugged you longer
Wish I had held you tighter
Wish I had said the many things
That were running through my head
Wish I had turned around
Wish I stood the chance

Dear Heart!

Dear Heart,

Do not fall in love ever!!! You'll hurt yourself and break into a million pieces. And a million pieces are not easy to fix. The scars left behind will be there forever. They will nudge everytime a memory resurfaces, everytime you hear a familiar song or pass by a familiar restaurant and everytime that happens grief will come over you like never before. Even smiling at another heart's joy will hurt you. You and i will both turn into bitter, spiteful people.

I promise you that i will never let you get hurt and you have to promise me the same.

xoxoxoxo