Alive

You smile, you're alive
You fear, you're alive
You cry, you're alive
You worry, you're alive
You dance, you're alive
You laugh, you're alive
You feel, you're alive
You breathe, you're alive
You love, you're alive
You live, you're alive

wishes

Wish I had hugged you longer
Wish I had held you tighter
Wish I had said the many things
That were running through my head
Wish I had turned around
Wish I stood the chance

Dear Heart!

Dear Heart,

Do not fall in love ever!!! You'll hurt yourself and break into a million pieces. And a million pieces are not easy to fix. The scars left behind will be there forever. They will nudge everytime a memory resurfaces, everytime you hear a familiar song or pass by a familiar restaurant and everytime that happens grief will come over you like never before. Even smiling at another heart's joy will hurt you. You and i will both turn into bitter, spiteful people.

I promise you that i will never let you get hurt and you have to promise me the same.

xoxoxoxo

everything is different...nothing will ever be the same again...i cannot seem to get the image of you and her out of my head...it keeps rewinding itself in my brain playing over and over and over again...the hole in my lungs is still there and so is the immense pain...but my body has become numb to that...the only signs of my hurting is the occasional tear...